what's her fuckin problem?? is everythin suppose to go her way?? is it seriously that everythin she thinks and does is right and all i do or believe is always wrong?? am i somethin that is born to de world just for her to do anythin that she likes on me?? am i that meaningless?? only somethin that can satisfy her by gettin scolded by her?? is my feelins that worthless?? with only so little value that it doesn't matter to her that she can just keep scoldin and also in public?? with all de ppl that was lookin... is he someone that ye can use to threaten me to do what ye wan me to do even though i'm reluctant to do it or do not noe how to?? is de world really that unfair?? 

yoz.. back again... just taken my dinner... now doin my stuff b4 startin my homework... stoned for 2 hours start for cca... din do much... just stared and thought of my life... how worthless it was... how meaninless it is as de days goes by.... what is de importance of my presence? is it worthwhile to continue livin? y was i born into this world?? Does my presence brin forth disgust, irritant to de ppl around me?? whatever reason/answer it is, i dun really care... Am i someone who has no feelins to what ye say to me when ye nag at me?? Are my pain and feelins that meaningless and worthless?? nvm... i dun care anymore... cyaz...

Yoz... my god... yesterday had a damn weird dream... lolz... i dreamt that me and ys were at one side, seein jp and de person she likes together... wth... haiz... i wonder y is it me who's like dat?? dreamin these kind of things.... oh yar this not de only one... lolz... last time got one me and ys were standin one side... i think jp was with us... i dunno lar... but it was at a beach then evon was runnin towards junsu and vice versa... at a sunset... with coconut trees around... i mean like wth... plz lar this is my dream and i dream about my friends... haiz... i pity myself... at least i din dream about yt, huimin and pl... lolz.. sorry guys... haha...

Yoz... oh yar just managed to put some or rather 2 pics that i've taken recently and yar... post it on my blog


oh yar this is huimin's newest pencil case... omg it's so unlike her to have a pencil box like this... at least if jp uses it, it's not that shockin but huimin... omg... lolz...

yup this is xiao yi and her usual fantasies... haha... k is fantasy de correct word to describe this but nvm... lolz... yar took this while they said they wanted to take pics... dunno for whatever reasons... and i'm shocked that i took so many pics... haha... lolz... k... shall go find somethin to do... cyaz...

Yoz.... i'm back... it's been a while since i've updated my blog... yesterday was good friday so there was no school yesterday... since it's on a friday, so there was no cca either... it's a good thing so dun have to see them again... my god i'm like lookin forward to de end of cca... haha... i think it's by end of april so left 1 more month... haha... i endured for so many years liao... so now damn happy that i have about 1 more month to go... actually 1 month plus... yup... but it's better than nothin... haha... k yesterday did nothin much actually... purposely slept in... haha... woke up at about 11 plus which was so shockin... actually it was 9am but i continued lyin on de bed... din wanna get up... so yar... then used de com practically for de whole day... did nothin much, revised on e-maths... de profit and stuff... so long never revise that so did it yesterday... watched some dbsk videos... haha... watched one video again... de happy together... omg that one damn funny... haha... no matter how many times i watched it, it's still as funny as ever... haha... yup...

Yoz... back again... today was atrocious... PE was suddenly moved up to de first period of de day... my god... it's too early in de mornin for PE... was practically yawnin throughout de whole pe... haha... we were doin de freezebe(sp?) my god... it's like damn lame lar... haiz... got kena almost hit by de one and only evon...

today din present de holocaust project... maybe not tmr either... since i think she wanted grp 1-3... yup... then we did a compre... my god... almost died man... it's like about some holocaust related stuff... haiz.. then dunno why mist is described as fugitive... my god... haiz... then de rest of de day was borin... oh yar just found out somethin... ys's ou xiang's handwritin is also atrocious... no offence ys... but seriously... couldn't really make out what his writin... haha...

k then after skool, went to yt's house instead of goin gym... so goin tmr instead... then they watched wang de nan ren again... haiz de show damn stupid lar... k no offence to those who like it... i mean de emperor is practically insane... psychotic (sp?)... then went home... after bathin and havin my dinner, went to get my second ear piercin... haha... actually it wasn't really that pain at all... haha... yup... now have to wait for 1 week then i can take it out... lolz... it cost like $35... haiz... k shall go do my work now... cyaz...

Yoz... it has been a while... now that de holiday has ended... and a new term begins... how tirin it is... havin insufficient of sleep and de subjects for de day din help much either... what can be said about what i've gone through for today was terrible... how i wish that there would be another week of holiday... but i wouldn't be goin anywhere either... stayin at home doin nothin but study... since i'm currently grounded... sigh... nothin much happened today... though pe was a torture... we have been runnin for about 30 plus mins continuously... yup... nothin really happened... After de 作文班, we went to evon's house to rehearse for our project... and jp found out thins that were sold that i never ever thought that in this world, someone would have come up with somethin like that... though it must have been placed in de wrong magazine... since it was quite or rather very disturbin... haha.. k better complete what my mom wants me to do... k cyaz...

yoz... i'm back... i finally told my mom about my results... lolz.. her reaction was like sian.... lolz... then after watchin her show, then she scolded me for my results... but she insisted that my father go to de meet-de-parents session.. but later after a period of time, she say she may go instead of my father... lolz...

haiz... tmr got meet-de-parents session... damn it lar y is it not an optional thin?? or else my parents dun need to go... and now it'd be free from de thin... since tmr is de last day of skool... lolz... but i think i have to study more and use lesser com... haiz... or else my mom will keep naggin and scoldin if i dun get good results... haiz... k shall do my holiday homework.. k cyaz...

yoz... back again... today woke up at 5am in de mornin... my god it's like damn freakin early.... then in de end, de competition was cancelled and has to be postponed to de followin week lar... but good thin they made it optional for us... haha... so good... next week dun need to wake up early liao... haha... then was dismissed late so went for tuition for like de most half an hour... lolz... go there for nothin... my god... then went home since physics tuition was shifted to 4 today... then went tuition and after tuition went to de shop to return my book... then guess who i saw... yes bingo it's mohawk... lolz... yup then went to de shop but din borrow any book since i was in a rush to meet my mom to have dinner together... lolz... then on my way, i saw pl's mom... haha... yup...

oh yar... i think i found what i wanna cut liao... haiz.. 已經煩了怎么多天了... 應該有一個了斷了... 不該再煩我可憐的朋友們... 哈哈... 尤其是小一, 小妹和媽... 辛苦了... lolz... yup... k shall finish watchin my show... k cyaz... haha...